I don't want to jinx it, because I'm enjoying the process so much so far, but I'm really liking the way the new book is coming along. The characters are already speaking to me, clamoring for attention, trying to get to me with their stories. If only I could write faster. If only I had slept better last night.
No complaints, though. I am enjoying getting to know a new bunch of people and hell, even a bit of a new world. More needs to be done with that.
I am happy.
Happy is great.
Looking forward to hearing back about my queries. Right.... now. Now? How about now? Soon.
Friday, June 27, 2008
Thursday, June 26, 2008
Rumors of my Demise have been Greatly Exaggerated
Wow. I haven't written here in over a month. And what a month it's been.
I have decided to stop letting life happen to me. I am taking control. I am watching what I eat and what I drink and how much I sit around. I am sending out query letters. I am writing. I am inspired. And almost as soon as I start making one change, so many other changes follow in the same direction. It's amazing. And it's something I should know about myself by now.
I am a bit of a control freak (in my head, I hear my husband laughing, saying 'a bit?!') and when I start to let things slip out of control, I have a tendency to give up entirely. Can't write? Well, better eat whatever the hell I want and drink whatever the hell I want. Eating too much? Well, may as well sit around watching TV on DVD all day, right? It's depressing. But it's nothing new. Because I have always, always been this way. And it's not depressing, because it can all be turned around, just as swiftly.
I sent my first query letter. The next couple of weeks I spent a lot of time soul-searching, thinking about myself. And I realized there were a lot of things holding me down, holding me back. Some of them can't be changed, and I know it. But others can. It is easy to drink more water in a day. It is easy to choose carrots over chocolate, at least six days a week. I mean, it's not even a struggle---I love carrots. It is even easy to sit down at my computer and really write for a page or two or five. Easy AND fun. When I am sad, everything becomes a tragedy. What a pathetic way to live. I am not a victim, and I don't want to live as though I'm one.
I am happier in these last few days than I have been for weeks. I feel cleaner. I feel inspired.
I have decided to stop letting life happen to me. I am taking control. I am watching what I eat and what I drink and how much I sit around. I am sending out query letters. I am writing. I am inspired. And almost as soon as I start making one change, so many other changes follow in the same direction. It's amazing. And it's something I should know about myself by now.
I am a bit of a control freak (in my head, I hear my husband laughing, saying 'a bit?!') and when I start to let things slip out of control, I have a tendency to give up entirely. Can't write? Well, better eat whatever the hell I want and drink whatever the hell I want. Eating too much? Well, may as well sit around watching TV on DVD all day, right? It's depressing. But it's nothing new. Because I have always, always been this way. And it's not depressing, because it can all be turned around, just as swiftly.
I sent my first query letter. The next couple of weeks I spent a lot of time soul-searching, thinking about myself. And I realized there were a lot of things holding me down, holding me back. Some of them can't be changed, and I know it. But others can. It is easy to drink more water in a day. It is easy to choose carrots over chocolate, at least six days a week. I mean, it's not even a struggle---I love carrots. It is even easy to sit down at my computer and really write for a page or two or five. Easy AND fun. When I am sad, everything becomes a tragedy. What a pathetic way to live. I am not a victim, and I don't want to live as though I'm one.
I am happier in these last few days than I have been for weeks. I feel cleaner. I feel inspired.
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