Writer's Block

There are two parts of my writing brain. Writer Brain and Editor Brain. They don't get along. One constantly undermines the work of the other. I've been working with Editor Brain so long that Writer Brain, feeling neglected perhaps, seems to have taken a vacation.

I'll have a brief (emphasis on brief) inspiration, and then... fizzle. Nothing. Nada. Staring at the screen, tearing out my hair, crying into my tea, NOTHING.

I suffer from insomnia. The worst part of sleeplessness is knowing you really, really just want to sleep and the more you want to sleep, the less likely sleep is to arrive. One anxiety feeds on another until basically you're left staring at the glowing red numbers on the alarm clock, watching the numbers tick toward wake-up time.

Writer's block feels a lot like insomnia. I want to write. I'd give my left foot to write, right now. I've tried everything: little games, blogging, more sleep, less sleep, more food, less food, more exercise, more caffeine, less caffeine, writing on paper, writing on the computer... but here I am, drawing blanks. The shadows of stories in my mind refuse to spring to my fingertips and into reality.

Still signed up for NaNoWriMo, though. Hopefully something will kick start in my brain before November 1st.